A True account .... The soldier .

[Mistress Ice]

  I was contacted by a serviceman , who goes on abroad next week . He was desperate for some CP before he goes . Cant join forums as their personal LTops are checked , security etc . So doesnt want the possible ridicule that being a subby male could entail.......... Had spoken to this young man several times prior to visit . He is afraid , not of dying , but of being so maimed that he would not be accepted by anyone for CP . My heart went out to him as we have chatted .  Hes been sent to this area before so is 2nd trip of duty next week . Has seen some horrendous sights , seen mates killed , the life in the forces!
   Had already told him if his nightare happened, then when fit enough ,I for one would not turn him away due to injuries sustained ...... and know others who would not either, that he coud be got to events  and meet others who would welcome and befriend him ....

   He has visited now ....even turned up in his combats !!  Well could easily be one of my lads friends ..... not that neighbours here take much notice of who comes and goes from each others houses .
    A coffee and talk ........well he talked,I listened . A lovely young man in mid 20s , very polite, and calling me Ma,am ! I guess its drilled into these guys as do have female officers in charge of them .
   He wanted a "Good session"  and he could take it . I think all my implements were used  , could feel him relaxing and going into oblivion ...

He spoke some more of what he had witnessed, and not just amongst forces friends, but civilians also. Some tears were shed after the session, and I just sat and held his hand ....... my feelings as a mum were/are spinning; if that me appear a softee .FINE! I am a Mum ,I could only imagine how his mother and family must feel ......so im human. Im glad Iv had experience of my old career where compassion and resolve are prominant, and also as a counsellor.
  Have promised to keep in touch with him, whilst hes away , by email and letters.
    So please God, keep my soldier safe, and all the others.......... tho in reality, who knows. Im glad I could give him the CP he wanted  and awed at his trust .  I did ask if I could put this on here ..with no names, no where hes going, and obviously not regiment .

  It somehow drives it more home what our guys and gals are doing in the world.......... I just pray he isnt one flown back to Lynham in a box, to go thro streets of Wooten Basset........... theres rarely a day when something isnt on local Tv from there.
  I dont feel like putting a account of his session for all to read.............. its was his private time,  and thats how that bit will stay.

[Mistress Rose]

My heart goes out to him.  It is so sad for all our young men and women in the forces these days.  Every tour abroad has high risk, and the danger if not killed of being disfigured or maimed.

I am glad that he was able to spend some time having a session and talking about his fears.  Lets face it, he cannot let anyone in his regiment see his fear, and it is not something that he will want to share with his family as they will be worried enough.

It is nice to know that you are going to keep in touch with him, and hope that he returns safely.

[zippy 1 duh]

I have JUST had an email M.R ...........husband wondered why I was a bit tearfull..... my young soldier is on a mission tonight...was deployed out at 11am our time yesterday (did not even have chance to phone family ..I find that DISGUSTING )...politics aside....  he is NOW THIS MINUTE ON FRONT LINE
...........NO I should not be "emotionally involved " ..aw sod it ..I am as , zippy and M.I ... OK if bad for business ...sod it , zippese mode ! As MY Top , and me as switch, I dont give a dilligaf ...... I am human,  ........please, folks pray to what ever for this young man, who came to M.Ice.......... its a bad ol world.

[Janks]

Zippy i pray that your solider friend is safe tonight, and that he and all the other brave servicemen and women in Afghanistan have a safe tour of duty.

[zippy 1 duh]

I heard from my "Young Soldier "  today , hes been wounded , "Just a flesh wound thro my thigh, bullets (4) removed and hope to be fit a couple weeks , tho 2 pals have been blown up ..am devastated, but thats war for you !"   sent to me and M.Ice ...........oh come on most know Im one and the same !
and I cant keep signing on and off..................  Iv mailed back and said  "All my friends, who would be yours, on GFs are thinking and praying for you .
Put in general chit chat .It appears our troops are interested in forth coming election . Non have anytime for Brown and co .... dont trust etc . They get postal ballots  .  YS  met Prince Charles on his visit and said what a "Great guy he is, no pomp, but down to earth !"

[dactarsspeed]

I am watching this thread with great interest and I take my hat off to you all. I makes people of my geberation realise how lucky we are. I mean I even escaped call up.

This chap is incredibly brave and fortunate to have your support M. Ice Take care

Dave

[titch]

A big vote of thanks to all our forces boys & girls, we do appreciate the fantastic job you are all doing,and also to Miss Ice for supporting the troops in your own way.

[Mistress Ice]

  I had an email this afternoon , from this young man .Things are very difficult , hes in bomb disposal .... these blasted devices made up with nails, bits of other shrapnel etc  . Yesterday a friend was blown up ,23yrs ..... a sniffer dog found this one , and it was "neutralised " .  Excuse my language but the bastards had planted it by a SCHOOL ........... knowing our guys and gals are protecting such ." The Taliban does not want BOYS educated, let alone girls, and these were under 11yr olds who attand this school !  "   

Maybe Im begining to realise exactly what this war is about ........... human liberty for all . Not just a case of  "terrorists abroad " . I will admit ,I shed some tears of ANGER and Fustration .  No spanking chat can be done obviously , and what hes sent me is allowed by the forces to be told . So NO official secrets broken , by me posting this here .

My Respect and Love goes out to every young soldier of whatever rank ,and there failies and friends. 

I AM checking that what I put on here is LEGAL General . So no rules are being broken .

You know something , its truelly HUMBLING to be able to "converse" by email and letters , with such brave and dignified human beings as "my soldier",  mnd you he put himself in a danger , even he says hes been pulled up for by his comanding officer .

THAT is chalked up and "Please God, let him live and be un maimed on return home "  Cos THIS Mistress  is going to give him one HELL of a caning for it!!!!   (and for FREE ........ no I will not be charging him for my services )....  if he gets home in one piece or not ,my service to him is FREE.

Have told him by letter, we ALL are  following and supporting him on GFs ..........was certain I could say that ,on behalf of all here .xx

[Burning Bot]

 ... ... Things are very difficult , hes in bomb disposal .... these blasted devices made up with nails, bits of other shrapnel etc  . Yesterday a friend was blown up ,23yrs ..... a sniffer dog found this one , and it was "neutralised " .  Excuse my language but the bastards had planted it by a SCHOOL ........... knowing our guys and gals are protecting such ." The Taliban does not want BOYS educated, let alone girls, and these were under 11yr olds who attand this school !  "  

Maybe Im begining to realise exactly what this war is about ........... human liberty for all . Not just a case of  "terrorists abroad " .  

The next time anyone questions WHY our troops are in Afghanistan fighting the Taliban, this anecdote is the argument I would like to use - and I know it to be accurate ; my Lady's son did a 6-month tour in Afhanistan last year and, had he not been promoted and transferred to a different unit, would be there again now (he expects to go back later this year), whilst her daughter's partner is out there now.

I never knew how I truly felt about the Iraq war ; whether it was or wasn't justified, but when I hear stories (which I cannot repeat) aabout certain things which have been seen in Afghanistan, I know that SOMEONE has to do SOMETHING to help the children of that country.

[zippy 1 duh]

I am now ashamed to say read bumpf   BB2 ..NOW KNOWING THIS YOUNG MAN  AND  having lost 2 god sons to this war ....Idid not understand it .
"My  soldier" , he knows Im zippy and M.Ice ............. so dont give a damn if signed under "wrong name "................. WE HAVE to fight the Taliban as we/our forebares, fought Hitler etc .........tyranny .......... NON OF US have a clue ......... ya know , thats what makes me angry ,WE HAVENT A CLUE! I know what its like going into a car, about to Blaze  to treat/save a pregnant mum, get toddler out of car .....  but thats peanuts to what these young forces folk face .
  YES was a mum of 3, but  fire brigade did all to protect us , I just gave drugs for pain, kept a pregnant lady calm, delivered her in ambulance, as a midwife...was my job . Gun man on unit that time thro my working life ...........ach kids play compared to what my "Young Soldier" is up against ...........

From Les Miserables  " Bring him Home "   (Scotty  !  can you pop that on here please , says it ALL ! )

[zippy 1 duh]

Have I made myself clear my soldier only wants his story on here , not elsewhere . Hes a spanko and only wants things on here . Ta .

[mepink53]

my sincere best wishes and gratitude to this brave young man and all the couragous troops who are laying their lives on the line every day to rid the world of this tyrrany. may god protect you all and may good triumph over evil.

[Mistress Ice]

Mistress Rose and I were talking about my "Young soldier" and the fact I had not heard from him.... just now an email arrived .he has been sent home due to injuries sustained when Bomb went off ..some shrapnel has pierced his sciatic nerve in Right leg (The main nerve down the leg , which starts and branches off down both legs .  those who know me , know my left leg sciatic nerve is buggaed , so leg does what it wants , ceases up etc and leaves chronic pain .
  Soldier has a totally dead leg at moment ( but I have mailed him back to say "Mine  was totally useless for many years, but it has good and bad days ..keep the faith, keep strong, you STILL have the leg!" ) THAT may sound harsh to (but I am an ol matron!!), but sympathy he does NOT want , just understanding .He has seen how I "lop along " when visited me ........ his bum is unscathed !!     (yes have put an emicon there as a sense of humour has kept me going ! )

  He emailed back "Look forward to my next visit, I will have to change my car for an automatic , Iv been promised an army office job when fit again ...... "

I am having to leave out large chunks of his email obviously , but hes alive .... I DO know what its like to be disabled from a younger age (I was 38yrs when my spine gave out ..am  55 now ) ...

Anyhow , there is nothing to stop a young man from training others ....... home he may be , physio etc and sharing worries  ..well , he is with me ..I feel honoured and humbled  and have told him we here would be humbled if he joins us .......... if you dont feel that way...well you have no feelings !!

He knows hes gonna get an arse roasting when visits next time .......
He knows also I dont bother a jot about elbow crutches, etc ........... and theres a stair lift to upstairs loo, and one down stairs ............. anyhow thats the latest .
WHAT a brave young  an ......... I feel honoured to have been trusted so much........and in his case I will not charge ..he can put fee to the charity that supports our troops and families who have not been so fortuate as "soldier boy " . MY ethics !! No one elses .ALL other clients , sorry but you pay fee..this young man is a special case! xxx

[Mistress Ice]

Someone PMd me to ask about my soldier... he gave me Permission to post what happened just before I went on hols ... Private "Benji" (not his real last name ) , has lost both legs below knee, so has had bilateral above knee amputations ,( These medically, as I know are better in long aim of mobility as knees have too many nerve involvements and blood flow is not so good ) . Hes also had a fore arm amputation . So is in a specialist unit very used to helping and treating our service men and women .I did speak to him today .... hes still woried about acceptance in civi/spanko scene . Iv assurred Him , on HERE he will accepted as a whole person . AND NO ,I wont hold back from his limits on CP ..by god he puts all of us to shame .... a young man of tenacity, and obviously , now, his pain threshold is even higher .
Since amputation his sciatic nerve seems to be responding and hes got some feeling back .. I knew this before went on hols, but Pauolas death .... well ,I didnt want to be depressing ....
Ive assurred Benji  I will see him as soon as he feels ready , if only for a a chat ......hes getting flash backs at the moment and one can never assume to know what these are like .I Have ,with permission given him Chops number ..........many wont know Mr Chips .. but hes and ol veteran ....

Have also told Benji we here are open minded and outward looking for his progress . Giving positive vibes ..He doesnt want sympathy , he just wants acceptance ..I for 1 have said "Yer Arse is fine lad, so thats no problem . " When he contacted me he had not had the full amputations ..he WILL get good prosthetic limbs, he will get fit again............Gawd he will outlive my blood pressure !
He also has a friend who will drive him here for CP , and just take Zak for a beach run .......... a persons disabilities/challenges are no problem to me ..........IF he needs a urinal container , So be it ....... hes NOT excluded from spanko land in my book .Ill hapily help him with that and empty it for him..........

 Thank you D for getting me to post on Benji xxxxx (yep Im human too and hesitated telling all.........) Paoula is different experience .......... dead and has left 2 young children motherless ..Im a Mum and have shared with Rose ......... its heart breaking , How do you answer "where is heaven and the angels ?Mummy is there , can I visit her ?"

For a TOP, Im am not hard (very few decent ones are!)  And I donT not apolgise for that! The day I loose my humanity, is the day loose ME! and is the day I STOP counselling, stop being a Top, and well Im not human anymore.

[Damar51]

. . Thanks for full update, Zippy:)     x